Making Amends To My Skin - My Story

Dear Skin,

I realize that I have been cursing you, beating you up and neglecting you for far too long now.  I am ready to make a change.  Ready to start acknowledging you for everything you do for me.

I guess it started when we got pregnant and you started itching.  

179 lbs 2000

I was annoyed with you then, not realizing that you were being stretched passed the point of comfort for you and instead of loving you and nurturing you, I just got mad and annoyed.  Then after we had the baby, I was mad at you for being stretched out.  I wanted you to "Snap! Snap! Go back to normal, tighten up!  Come on on hurry up!"  And you did.  With not ONE stretch mark on my belly.  

I did have stretch marks on my hips but they were so light, I could barely even see them.  

You did one helluva job!  

I never thanked you for that and I am so sorry.

117 lbs 2000

All i ever do is find what's WRONG with you and never praise you for your amazing ability to stretch and snap back, and then stretch again... when I gained my weight in 2007, 

7 years after having Journey and blew up to 168 lbs.  

168 lbs 2007

155 lbs after doing Weight Watchers - October 2010

There you were again, stretching for me, riding with me, no matter how big I became, or how much I yo yo'd, you were there.  You never complained, you just silently adjusted.  As i shoveled more ice cream down my face, you silently obliged to whatever size I brought us to. 

Through all the ups and downs, you were still there. 

August 2011 - 144 lbs - March 2012 - 119 lbs

And now that we are the smallest and most fit we've EVER been, here you are again, still. 

Current March 2012 119 lbs

Yes, a little stretched out and less elastic than when we were in our 20's, but you still look good girl!  Your stretchiness leaves me the room to have another baby if I want to!  

And you are elastic enough not to hang when I stand up straight.  

I LOVE that about you! lol. 

No one believes me, as they stare at my face in surprise when I mention how old we are.  

I sit in the sun way too much without protecting you and you never complain.  

When the winter winds blow on us, you just sit there, firm and shiny, clear and bold.  

I love every bit of you from the bottom of my feet, to the backs of my thighs.. 

speaking of that, when I said I wanted to get rid of my cellulite naturally, 

you went along with it and assisted me in that mission.  

Mission accomplished.  

November 2011

December 2011

I couldn't have done ANY of this without your willingness and flexibility.  

I am SO SORRY for all the times I have cursed you, NEGLECTED you, 

complained about you, put my head down and disagreed when someone complimented you. 

March 2012

From now on I will praise you, appreciate you and say, "Thank you, it's true!"  when someone compliments you!  You have always been there for me, my longest "long term" relationship and i realize now I have been abusive and unappreciative for far too long.  I am done being mean to you, done beating you up, done being the abusive personality inside the body, only seeing what's wrong.  

I see you as perfect, expansive, beautiful, glowing, shining, flexible, 

agreeable, amazing, strong, bold, and fierce and i PROMISE 

to take better care of you from today forward. 

I am so sorry for everything I have done and I want to make it up to you.  

What can I do to make it right?

Love,

JeniFu - the one inside.